The only thing I know, is that I don't know anything...

The message that keeps coming up for me, and I’m assuming the collective, is that if we haven’t dealt with our shit by now, that now is the time. Go time. Once and for all, deal with the blocks that are holding us back. Keeping us from reaching our full potential. Preventing us from realizing our dreams. We can identify the triggers, understand where they come from, but now is the time to finally break the cycle of how we have (not) faced the demons that frighten us and keep us reactive in fear mode.
For me, it's always been jumping right into reactive/fear mode and even if I can’t identify all of the triggers, I feel/see them coming and it produces a constant state of anxiety. I feel like I’m always in this hyper aware state to the point that I miss some of the obvious pitfalls that stop me every damn time I feel like I’m moving forward, making progress on my life’s dreams, and I take a major step forward, then BLAMMO something always happens to cause me to doubt myself, doubt my truth, and question everything.
NO MORE!
So now, what is the lesson? What do we do when this happens? How do we break this cycle? I don’t know.I’m just over here going back and forth between “AWESOME GODDESS” and “I really don’t like myself.”. I think I’m coming to understand that it really doesn’t matter WHAT the triggers are, or where they came from, but how we respond when we are triggered. Do we attack/feel attacked? Do we avoid/ignore/stuff deep into the recesses of our psyche? Do we resort to numbing our feelings through drugs and alcohol or mindless consumption? Honestly it could be anything. That’s not the important part. What I keep hearing/reading/feeling is that it’s important to change our response. Change the way we react. Understand that we cannot change anyone else, we are only in charge of changing ourselves. Changing how we respond/react, and being compassionate with ourselves and others in the process. (Harm none includes yourself.) and operate from the love frequency and not the fear frequency.
Sounds simple doesn’t it? But that’s the kicker isn't’ it? That the simplest thing is actually the most difficult to put into practice. Just breathe.






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